One life....

All we got is ... one life.


Think about born again with all your 40+ knowledge 20+energy and 60+wisdom.

We do have the entire 60+ years ahead.

Why i am blabbering about this?

I am 43 now and I feel less enthusiastic about changing the world
i see ... the thought i had when i was 20+.


At 20+ i felt that the whole life is in-front of me to explore.
I repeat... life is in-front of me to explore.


But after reaching 40+ i feel like i have left a lot behind doing
nothing to change the world as i see it.

Even the people i meet and all my friends are not talking about
changing the world and not talking about what is wrong with the world.
Most of them are talking about "how much we have saved"... to lead the
rest of the life..."how much we have earned"... that sounds more like...

i am getting ready to retire and die.


I am now wondering what it would feel like when i am 50+...

Will my friends talk about who are all alive and who are all dead?? and
not about changing the world?


Will that be like i am almost done and let me look for decent
death?
Will that be like I have left all these years doing nothing
and what i am going to do with aching leg, head and spine?

Will that be like I am closer to death and let me look for
things to feed without working?

Are there people who changed the world they saw... after 40?

There are very few .... Am i one of them?

Let me see.