Prayer

What is a prayer ...

Is there someone listening to your prayers? I don't believe
so but still why do people (we) pray?

Why can't we pray to a person and why are we looking at something
which we don't know whether exist or NOT ..
Why not pray to a person we know...

It is something like telling things to your closest friend or wife ... but the
issue there with the friend or wife will judge us for all what we are saying
so we cannot pray to them ... because we will meet them again and the
judged personality from you will be open to him/her.

Precisely the point...So, we create a person who will listen
to us without judging ... even if he judges he never tells
that back. So if you can tell something to someone without
being judged is the best thing one can expect.



Prayer is ...

That and telling someone your problems (or more generally,
your life situation) without any fear of being judged as a
result…

One life....

All we got is ... one life.


Think about born again with all your 40+ knowledge 20+energy and 60+wisdom.

We do have the entire 60+ years ahead.

Why i am blabbering about this?

I am 43 now and I feel less enthusiastic about changing the world
i see ... the thought i had when i was 20+.


At 20+ i felt that the whole life is in-front of me to explore.
I repeat... life is in-front of me to explore.


But after reaching 40+ i feel like i have left a lot behind doing
nothing to change the world as i see it.

Even the people i meet and all my friends are not talking about
changing the world and not talking about what is wrong with the world.
Most of them are talking about "how much we have saved"... to lead the
rest of the life..."how much we have earned"... that sounds more like...

i am getting ready to retire and die.


I am now wondering what it would feel like when i am 50+...

Will my friends talk about who are all alive and who are all dead?? and
not about changing the world?


Will that be like i am almost done and let me look for decent
death?
Will that be like I have left all these years doing nothing
and what i am going to do with aching leg, head and spine?

Will that be like I am closer to death and let me look for
things to feed without working?

Are there people who changed the world they saw... after 40?

There are very few .... Am i one of them?

Let me see.

Thought and Solar Energy

Here is an interesting comment i made to my colleague today (8th Sep 2009)

I asked him " you look like you are lost in your thoughts"

He said..."yes ... i was thinking about something" "how can anyone
be without thinking"..."We always think".

Then i made this comment out of the blue (which i think i was
thinking about when i was thinking about blogs, teaching, social
media networking !!!).

"Thinking is like Solar energy...free and Wasted". He repeated the same and noded as if he acknowledged my statement "Thinking is like Solar energy...free and wasted".



Then this thought came to my mind...why there are no process
which puts all the thoughts available free and put them into
use (like solar concentrator....).

Damn my thought... that is and was done with text-books, papers,
stories.
Damn my thought... that is what google is doing concentrating the
most searched page on the topic.
Damn my thought... that is what teachers are doing ... delivering
concentrated lessons leanrt over decades.

Damn my thought...

Yet another number...

Here is another example of our obsession with number...what is so stupidly great about the number 70? If it is 50 or 100 i can understand...what is this 70?

Poland is celebrating the 70th anniversary of WWII....what a crap.

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090901/ap_on_re_eu/eu_europe_wwii_anniversary

Statue smashing...

Thiruvalluvar statue at Bangalore and Sarvajna statue at chennai...
is it a good thing or bad thing to do?

One argument can be put in this way... now if any rift happens
between kanadikas and tamilians in bangalore or near...the
first target for kanadikas would be to smash the statue. That
will fuel the anger of tamilians and they will probably want to
retaliate fiercely.

The next thing that will happen is ... people in chennai will
smash the Sarvajna (Sarvangu as they call him in tamil) and that
will further infuriate the kanadikas.

Will this spiral the hatred between the two regional people
living in both states?

OR on the psychological front....another argument can be put.


People will show their anger on smashing the statue than smashing
people...is that good. I would say that is good...then we should
install as many such statues as possible everywhere and peoples
attention will go in protecting the statue and smashing the
statue than attacking each other

My thinking is that this fuel the people attack than bringing
harmony ...let us look at this way...what happens if tamil guys
in bangalore smashes Kempekowda OR Kevempu statue in retaliation
to smashing the thiruvalluvar statue.

According to me this is a bad move by both states to re-installing
the old-forgotten statues at both the places. We will know in
coming years that this will prove ....not too far i beleive...this is
september and we have the cauvery issue coming up.

So....What a stupid act both the state governments did.

My Stupid statement...

My stupid statement....

I have been repeatedly saying this statement for last 2-3
years to many... i donno why i believe in this...and I am
not sure of what i am saying as well.


Science is struck for last the 70-years and Engineering
took over and Engineering is getting struck for the last
10-20 years that is why we are not seeing any progress or
major breakthrough execpt exploitation industry like (mass
production, information extraction, information distribution,
spreading the same technology to underdeveloped country etc.,
etc., etc.,).


and at the end i want to finish like "Where is my De-broglie".


My hope is we will find a good scientific breakthrough soon
and then everything follows on a developmental phase rather
than the exploitation phase.

Twitter and economy....

Here is the comment i made on someone's blog about attention economy....

Attention is money and Free is an economy there is no question or argument about that.

What Google did? brought all the free info available at one click and doing it
the smarter way (by spending their money).

Seller attention...
That is what google is doing...bringing the attention-seeking sellers to the buyers.
That is what adverticement industry is doing ... bringing the attention
seeking sellers to the buyers through media (print,video and audio).

When it comes to social networking 'attention' it is
buyer attention ... IMHO it should work other way
around. Where the seller will go after the buyer.


If 1000's of 100 member group is talking about Nike...then Nike should
abandon Jordan's (with all due respect to his sports) endorsement and
look deeply into those groups.

If a single 1000 member tribe is talking about taking vacation to Hawaii
...the hotel should hold updating their website and concentrate on the
tribe.


If google is about finding the right seller.... (facegle and twitgle) is about
finding the right buyer.

Push-on-pulls is an easy monetization (Google).
Push alone (facegle and twitgle) will be tough though... customer may get offended on Push
even if it is genuine.

Attention is money and Free is an economy.

This blog... is only for those guys who were in Hall-IV IITK during 1989.

20-years back during this week I came to IITK ...to meet Jayaraman
for any advice for joining Ph.D in IITK....he prometely took
me to one Mr. Ilangovan in C-210 and vanished.

I was at that moment had no clue of what project i will do for
my Ph.D...Ilango asked me whether I am interested in doing Ph.D
in NMR...I said yes...he asked me to come in the evening to
meet other friends.

Evening I went to C-block HallIV... there was this fat fellow
on his short without shirt...he was singing some thuthakka thuthakka
song in hindi and was hanging in the middle floor. I asked for
ilango to him....he introduced himself as DevAnand doing M.Tech
and took me to lawn and we were waiting for Ilango to come
from his lab.

Then came a group of American college guys....one lean rowdy looking
guy was there who was talking all filth and laughed loud...
I was introduced to him ... hey i am Immi...Immanual Selvaraj.
Impressive I thought....he introduced his juniors who came
to join like me.

Everyone started asking my area of interest...i had nothing to
tell except NMR...what in NMR...who the hell knew...simulation
or experiemental.... i said experimental.... because i had no
clue on what is simulation.... in chemistry there is nothing
called simulation...all glass and chemicals...there was a
big pause. I got scared...i never knew experimental in NMR
means means hardware....Ilango came and ordered for tea etc.,
to everyone I thought wow...this guy is rich.

I thought i impressed everyone only on one thing...my smoking...
I was the highest smoker in the whole group.... i smoked around
4-5 cigrettes on that evening.

Got interviewed and selected...can write a lot about that interview
as well...but will stop.

Got selected so a party was going ON with the american college
guys....that lean rowdy fellow was drinking and shouting....
but he was interesting in many ways....i thought.

Fat fellow (dev) said he will book a room for me in HallIV... so
he did... but before moving to HallIV i was put in shared room with
a mallu actioned tamil fellow called Tamil.... the first thing
that got my eye with that fellow was .... he had 4-nipples...
We shared that room for 2-3 weeks i guess... we became freinds...
though he moved to hallV i moved HallIV because i liked what
i saw in HallIV....Ilango, fat fellow and rowdy fellow.

We three are still freinds and in touch....thanx to email and internet.
It is 20-years now.... It is still good to remember that time.

Why to Blog?

Does it worth Blogging.


Yes it is. But is it about

1) self advertisement?
2) just for the high/low you get from followers comments?
3) Net addiction?

Yes...there is a partial truth in all the above.

I think there is much more to blogging...everything may sound old...but as a new blogger i thought i will write :-) .


I believe blogging is a very good habit and can be looked
upon by urself after few years on what state-of-mind you
were few-years back. It will also gives you a habbit of
illustrating and putting things in a readable format.
When you analyze some topic and put it in writing it gives
you a good vision and understanding of the particular topic and remains
longer in your memory than just reading it.

Think of something you always chat/ramble over a cup of tea or drinks
with freinds and strangers. It vanishes there but a blog
created with the same time spent... remains and would worth
reading back. when reading back you could correct course
on the thinking you made on that particular topic.

Good blogging everyone. OldMonk will keep blogging.