MJ mark on earth

Jackson's death came as a big shock to me.

If someone can make a mark on earth with his creation
it is MJ. I believe aliens looking at earth should see an
"MJ" written on it.


I liked Micheal for his music and dance.

During my college days (1980-86) I used to perform Micheal's break-dance
(Indian version of it though) in college cultural program's
(not on stage but within the audience).

I once even danced on a street corner in front of tea stall
for a Tamil number in his style...a big crowd gathered around
that...my friends were clapping. I danced for a whole of
5-minutes.


I once danced on stage with some of the moon-walks of
Micheal during 1991 in cultural program in IITK.

I used to practice his moon-walk for years and got it
to some extent but could never reach.

I liked every song of Micheal and loved some of them.

He is a legend of pop and stage performer... inventor
of moon walk, nice human, creator, ...

For me he is Einstein of Music.

The world is really gonna miss him... and i am one of the billions.

Is memory a gift or curse

I had some thing in my mind yesterday night to blog about. I still
remember i was thinking this is what i will blog about tom'row.

Now when i sit in front of my puter i don't remember what i thought of.


Is memory a gift or a curse?

Lucky we don't remember everything that we see, read,hear.

Kids enjoy their days and every bit of their second of
life because of their in-ability to correlate the memory.
They do remember ... but they have not correlated and
categorized their memory. That is why they could
easily forget the consequence of a deed whether good or
bad and carry on with what they are doing.

Is it not amazing to see your kid call you 'stupid' and
get beaten by you and then the next minute comes back to
you like as if nothing happened...does that mean they
have forgotten the instance...no way. My son still remembers
why i beat him when he called my mom 'evil grandMa'.
But when he looks and plays with me he never remembers that
instant...that instant is just another instant and has
not been still categorized as something special event
and he does not remember that event when he looks at me
... but as a old-dude i remember often that when i look
at my son.

Another great thing about kids is that they don't have a
future...they live on at that moment with little influence
from their past. But as a grown-up we live on our past
and fear of future and miss out the present.

Though i can realize this and write about it...i cannot
be like a kid...living for that moment. So I ask again..

Is memory a gift or a curse?

(hundred and one percent.. i did not think of this topic
yesterday NOR until i started writing...).

lingering on the same thought

I could not think of anything more except for what i did
couple of days back...

Did i make a mistake?

I am still waiting and the client did not reply to my
mail. Is he playing a mental game? OR he is so irritated
that he does not even want to write to me.

What i offered is not that bad a proposal... a software
package which needs 2x3 man years of production when
someone wanted to share the code... i just asked for
9-lacs... less than $20K is that something big that
he gets annoyed or he wants me to get down on my
requirements?

I have few installations as well. We sold the software

ranging from 1800$-3000$ at four different places...of course

through a seller and i got only 500$-1500$.


Will wait for a week and then may be i will ping him.

Was it a mistake?

Did i do a mistake?

Yesterday i blogged about doing a transaction with a buyer... i was happy i could close
the day with do it my way or no way.

I have off loaded my concerns to the payer and he is
keeping silent. I donno whether he is evaluating my
proposal or dropped the entire project.

I am worried now... did my decision to go straight
and transparent is (was) a mistake?

Because it is not only my money... it is stake holders
money that is at stake...if the negotiations went well
and even if i settled for 6-lacs as proposed by them
then i could have paid back at least 70% of the investors
money.

Now I have no choice except to wait. Should i called
for help? Should i asked someone to do the negotiation?

At the end of it... i was worried that they will push
all their developmental work on my head. I can't do justice to them and i can't do
justice to the company i am working now. With that fear only i wanted to
push back so that they will come back little mild and acceptable.


Well ... now there is no going back. I have to wait.

Hard Decision

Hard Decision.


Today I was making a negotiation for selling a software code
I have developed over the past 3-4 years (with programmers).

The talk was going on between the buyer and me for the last
1-month and I finally settled on getting 9-lacs for the
code and hand it over to them. When we finally met 3-days
back the buyer just put a googly around saying the payment
will be made as 30-30-30-10% over a period of 300-days.


I was taken aback...could not say anything at the meeting.
This may be the part of negotiating teams effort ...i never
know. One fellow hook you down on the amount payable and
then suddenly one fellow comes and drops the bomb on
payment schedule saying "it is company policy" and all
that crap.

Probably it is a regular practice in sales team's to do the job like
this. But i was unaware because i was never involved in
money transaction.

Earlier i had bitter experience with
a U.S. customer (Indian settled in U.S.). He never paid
me in time... finally i beat him up and got 10% extra
paid...but all together the payment schedule made the
whole development and my company going for a spin.


This time i did not want to give that a chance. I have
just sent him a mail saying what ever he is talking is
non-sense. Because i am giving him the code at one-shot
and why should he pay me in installment? Will he accept
me delivering the code also in installment?

Though this is an important amount of money (the money
i am thinking of paying back the investors). I can't
afford to loose it... but sometimes nothing is
better than non-sense...for the 9-lacs (he is proposing
7-lacs) you end-up spending your time and money
which worth more than that.


So I took the hard decision either my way (transparent) OR no-way.
Let me see how it goes.

What a Beautiful world

What we observe is not nature itself, but nature
exposed to our method of questioning. (Heisenberg,
Physics and Philosophy, 1963).


What a fantastic statement this is. Have you ever
observed this in real life? Did nature present
itself to the way you look at it. For me it is
many a times....

I remember when i rared doves at the age of 12...i always saw the sky
full of doves flying...I could even identify the groups ...
when i left my interest in raring doves i don't remember seeing
doves on the sky...did they vanish? No.

I remember when i wanted to build air driven small toy car...
the wind was blowing the whole day when i had my car getting
repaired...the wind did not show its face when i had
everything ready.


When i was working in GE and getting multi-lac pergs... I used
to wonder how the maid-servant, auto-wallah and low-end workers
are suffering to get 100Rs/day...

when i started working for 2-lac/annum then i saw how
costly the house rent was... then i saw how costly it
is stay back a day in a AC room... I saw how well to do
people spending lavishly on vacation and staying in resorts.
But i did not see autoworkers suffering...i argued why they
are charging extra when the petrol price when down?

When i started the school software making...everywhere i go
i saw schools... i realized there are 20-schools just around
the place i lived...while traveling in train and bus i saw
schools everywhere....never before i saw so many schools.
Schools were there but i never bothered to look at them...



Mind is a wonderful thing and so the world is... it looks
beautiful the way you look at it...it looks pathatic
the way you look at it... it looks ugly the way you
look at it... it is enjoyable the way you perceive it.

Exploitation is not productivity

Exploitation is not productivity...

What a great sentence.

But How do i produce without exploiting the existing resources?
Produce needs ingredients...can't produce something from the
air...ah...that is also a wrong sentence or comment to make...
am i not exploiting air?

Why do geeks like me like that statement?

I believe the sentence is read as "over exploitation" or
"unwanted exploitation" OR "only exploit".

Is outsourcing is a exploitation?
Yes it is. But does it reduce the productivity? would
say NO. It increases productivity of the outsourcing company. Does not it
exploit the brains of the third world country?


Then why this sentence is so popular? It is a philosophical
statement and not a sentence. How do we produce without
exploiting resources....to produce you need resource/ingredients. Once you
produce the ingredients vanishes....exploited.

There are ways to produce without utilization...like
internet search (google)...but it utilizes or exploits the work done
by millions of people over few decades. To an argument google
can be considered as 'no exploitation product' company. Because
it exploits something available for free and the produce does not
deplete the ingredients. But may not be entirely true.

I may be comfortable with the following statement than the
one quoted above.

"minimize exploitation and maximize Productivity".


How do I minimize exploitation? Well, that is a different
topic all together. I will see whether i can put something
on that topic.

Cheers.